Cellar's HOLE

crazycal1

hey dude-
i still think you eating well under on protein.

einsteins mind was the key to all things...to understand more than to know.

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cellaratt

Not really looking for answerers just kinda putting myself out here....I find I'm kinda at a cross roads here....I'm happy with my gains and don't want to go back to where I was 2 months ago but diet is really getting to me...The pain in my side has really got me fcuked and I'm not ready to make long term health desicions without being fully aware of what is going on with my body....I'm not a dummy by any means actually quite the opposite yet I can't fully grasp whats going on in the insides. Doctors...No....Really contumplateing giving up bulking and just try to eat 3 squared. I'm a all or nothing kinda guy so once I come to my conclusion it's stamped in time. I think I'm doing great, than comments like not enough protein get thrown in and I'm bedazzled all over again....I want those comments...I apprieciate those comments. I respect all your oppions which is why they way so heavy on my mind. Your techniques are tried and true. I can never compete so it isn't necessary for me to go balls to the wall but the thrill, the pump, I love it....Will truelly be sad if I make the choice to stop. But I will go on. Again this pain in my side has gotten to me. I was a heavy drinker for about 15 yrs. and have been sober for 1 and I use to get those pains in the morning when I drank which was one of the driving forces that help me quit....know there back since I started this diet and I need to know why so I can fix it...My son is 3 and I'm 33 and I want to make sure I'm around long enough to see him graduate college...I lost my father when I was 5 and my brother when I was 12 and know what it's like to grow up without them....I want better than that for my son...not for me so much as I've spent all but the last 3 yrs. challenging death, laughing in it's face. taunting it to take me if it dared...but ever since the birth of our miracle child ( he weighed 1 lb. 15 oz at birth ) I look at death differantly....For the first time in my life I fear it.....which I believe may give death the upper hand and I play to win as losing that game is not a option. On a lighter note all is well with the house and closing is scheduled for Auust 1st of this yr. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I will continue to update on a regular basis if I continue bulk and lift. I plan to stay active in this community which ever I decide as I consider you all as friends and a invaluable source of information and even if I give one person a good idea once atleast I won't feel out of place. To be continued....

cellaratt

Well I'm mentally in a much better place now...I think the pain in my side comes down to too much liquids at night. Through the process of elimination this is my conclusion. That would help explain why I had the same pains when I was a heavy drinker aswell. Completely blew my diet over the last four days and as a result lost 3 hard earned pounds. What took a week and some days to gain only took skipping a few meals here and there to lose, fcuk I hate being a ectomorph...Not really concerned at this point with my gains as the house deal has me running rampid, just as long as I don't slip under 140 lbs. I won't beat myself up to bad...I.plan on revamping my bulk diet after I get in the house as I will have a nice, new, big,kitchen to prep my meals in ( blender currently is not available to use as I have no place to put it ). TTFN...