My Last 4 Weeks Before the Show....

Tall

Where abouts is the Notts show mate?

Pikey

It's 14th October at the Royal concert hall.

Tall

Just found that after googling for the UKBFF site

LeeB

seems like the water from the weekends eating is off now. looked nice n dry this morning.

feel tired, hungry, not sleeping too great, energy levels are low.. so all things as they should be!

trained shoulders last night - was hard work but i enjoyed it.

legs tonight. my knee was a little sore this morning (recurring injury) so will see how that goes..

also ill see how flat i feel after training and may have a high/moderate carb meal afterwards!

LeeB

well i havent been on here in a few days.

had a really bad time of things. looked great on friday night after training legs.

sat morning, stomach bug... oh joy... my young lad had been ill during the week.. i thought i had escaped.. obviously not!

half way through morning i got a call from steve the lad who i am getting ready for the first timers... he had same stomach bug... so weekend was wasted...

this week i am off work and after the weekend my motivation was rock bottom.. then i found out on monday my gran had gone into hospital with a severely swollen liver (shes been having probs the last few weeks)... so theres been alot of running around and not being able to eat properly.. im the type of person that family always comes first so the diet is pretty much out the window (as has been the gear for about 4 days or so now). im keeping the cardio up and am not eating ridiculously.. just eating every 3 hours or when i feel i need to..

just found out today its cancer so will see what pans out in the next few days etc..

the plan now is to do the leeds show the week after the leicester show... this week will be a complete write off and in all honesty i dont have any intentions of being 100% back on the diet until i go back to work on monday.

so its been an eventful week... and its getting harder and harder all the time to envision myself on stage.... BUT i know that getting there is a test of my characetr and will make me and my family very proud... so i WILL be there! and i WILL be my best!

hopefully ill get on here more regular!

steveg

sorry to hear your news lee mate. keep your head up and keep chipping away, and il hopefully see you at the finals!

LeeB

unfortunately i just have not been able to give my show prep 100% these last few weeks, and with that in mind i have decided not to compete this year.

for anyone who has competed in the past they know how much effort is needed both mentally and physically. unfortunately due to a number of reasons ive found that at the moment i just cant put in what is needed.

i know i am letting myself and the people who have helped me down but the last thing i want to do is to stand on stage and place badly and know that the reason for it is because i had not worked hard enough.

It got to the point where i was trying my best to eat the food as and when needed and i was resenting the fact that it was taking away from other things happening in my life.

i wont give any excuses as to why i have pulled out other than the fact that competing takes ALOT of focus and at present that focus is best placed being given to my family!

i will be back competing either next year or the year after.

in the mean-time i have been enjoying being in very good condition and feel good from eating again (my steak n ale pie and pint of john smiths for lunch yesterday was great!).

In terms of diet/training, for the next week or so im eating what i want when i want.. im still taking t3s so im not going to get fat as they taper off.... after that ill go back to eating as clean as possible.. training wise i havent trained for power for a long time now so think i will do that for a few months as i enjoy this type of training... also my training partner is just startin his final bulk for competing next year... and at 6'2 and 19 stone hes going to take some pushing!!!

razg

Sounds like you've had a pretty rough time Lee, i'm sorry to read it. All the best for your gran, and your next comp, whenever that may be.

Bodyworks

had a similar experience myself this year lee. you're 100% correct mate. family before anything. all the best to your gran.

Pikey

Certainly the right decision Family has to come first, all the best to you and yours.